We were sitting for our Zoom session and I found myself standing, raising my adjustable desk, and intentionally taking deep breaths. My coach was pretty much letting me have it. That was my story. And because that was my story, I lost our conversation midway through a very important coaching session.
Trauma.
It sucks. And unhealed, it shows up everywhere. It doesn’t discriminate. It doesn’t allow you to be free in one conversation and struggling in the next. It’s there. Lurking.
Do you struggle with constructive criticism? It’s something I’ve been working on this year so that I can climb to the next level. But…OMG! The struggle is real.
My coach is very - how do I say this - direct. She just tells it like it is. And I find myself very much the same way, except delivering is one thing but receiving is quite different.
So, we were on Zoom, and I raised my hand to stop her mid-sentence because I was having a moment. She paused. I told her that she felt like my parent scolding me. The feeling was real in that moment.
We worked through it and I landed on, “No matter what I do, I’ll never be enough in my mother’s eyes.”
This was huge because for the first time in my life, I added “in my mother’s eyes,” to the equation of my not enough-ness. The awareness alone lifted a huge burden from me. I thought, “I don’t need to be enough for her,” and I meant it.
Our personal freedom is waiting for us to be strong and courageous enough to ask for the help we need. If we “suck it up” every time we are activated, then we are depriving ourselves from rising.
Can you take constructive criticism? If not, then you may have some unhealed parental wounds that need your attention.
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You are seen and heard. All my love,
Allyson